Glory’s Journal April 8,2002

I’m very very very confused. Am I supposed to be happy? I guess I am right? I might not have to go through chemotherapy. But why am right at this min. actually worrying that I don’t have to do chemo. I mean chemo is bad for my body & everything. Do I want it so bad? I guess I’m just upset that I miss this opportunity to experience really trial. I dunno. God can you please explain this to me. I guess I wanted the chemo just to have an excuse to slack off from school…..but today I’ve been thinking…do I really want to be a doctor? They’re so egocentric! I dunno, I’m really confused. I guess either way ….. God had a purpose for this to happen. Maybe it was a punishment or matter it was that is His will & he know better.