Glory's Transplant Day2

Glory's Transplant Day2

移植的第二天也是正式開始落藥的第一天, 兩個高擠量的化療藥加上大量水與抗生素, 叫她吃甚麼吐甚麼, 這種情景挑起我六年前的記憶, 是她第一次接受化療後回家的情景, 在家中抱著坐廁狂吐不止, 今天再看到除了掃背遞紙巾的動作無變外, 內心變了, 變得好像痳林了, 這個痳林不是對她的愛不同了, 只是對這些極度折磨人的化療認識多了, 加隻止嘔藥等一會兒便過去, 死不了, 反而中午時落藥的中途, 她突然感到呼吸好像有困難, 護士立刻停了藥, 醫生群立刻進來, 左聽右聽, 左問右問, 護士推入來一部心臟檢查機器, 要查 EKG 心臟是否有問題, 我們心裏有數這才是最大危險, 心臟受不起這些毒藥的毒性便會一睡不起, 感謝主的是結果一切正常繼續下藥, 為了使肺部給她有點運動, 我們看了一集(殘酷一叮) 一些內容叫她狂笑不止, 除了肺部運動外, 歡笑聲加速一些內分泌叫她精神起來.

看到參賽者被評判殘酷一叮出局, 我真的感到, 人生也相似, 聖經說: 我們都成了一台戲, 被世人和天使觀看, 這台戲是指鬥獸場上的戲, 參賽者出盡法寶為要久留一會, 因留得越久奬賞越大, 文筠要鬥下去多留一些日子都是想演好她自己人生的角色, 但更重要的是不論你能留多久, 評判那殘酷的一叮總會響起, 那時你怎樣面對這一叮, 開開心心接受這一叮, 還是心有不甘拒絕接受這一叮?

文筠生命的一叮隨時會響起, 她也很緊張很懼怕, 但她已懂得盡力後便要開開心心地去面對. 交託神--不是嘴上的言詞, 它是一個內心的態度.

明天還要多加一隻以前她從未用過的化療藥, 請切切為她能承擔代禱.

Glory's Transplant Day2

The second day of transplant is also the first official day of medication, which consisted of 2 high dosages of Chemo with large quantity of water. Whatever Glory took in, she vomited. This reminded me of what happened 6 years ago when she returned home from her  first radiation treatment----non-stop vomiting in the bathroom. Today, aside from handing her tissues and stroking her back, something has changed, an inner change of my  feelings. I have become numbed, not that my love for her has turned numbed, but rather with increased knowledge about this tormenting treatment, I know the vomiting will soon pass. The throwing up in itself will not kill her. However, in the middle of the treatment, all of a sudden Glory indicated that she had difficulty breathing. The nurse stopped the medication immediately, and doctors rushed in. They examined her, questioned her, and brought in a EKG machine to check her heart...we know that this is the real danger. If her heart cannot support the severity of the medication, this will be it. Thank God, all turned out well and they resumed her treatment.In order to provide her with 'some exercise for the lungs', we watched a TV program (殘酷一叮). The program content brought some good laughters, which not only help exercise her lungs, but  the laughing helped her perk up!

When I watched how the contestant was voted out by the judges, I felt that life is likewise. The Bible says: God has put us on display..like men condemned to die in the arena.

This is referring to combating with animals in the arena. The longer one can stay in, the greater his reward. Glory too is fighting to extend her life so she can play the role of her life well.But no matter how long you try to stay in the contest, the gong from the judges will eventually come. How would you face the gong, with joy or with reluctance?

The gong for Glory's life will strike any moment, she is nervous and afraid, but she has learnt to face it with joy. To trust in God is not a mere slogan, it is an attitude of the inner heart.

Tomorrow she will be given a new medication, please pray that her body can sustain the new medication.