Journal Aug.13, 2003
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Glory's diary,
Cancer relapse,
I’m scared, Firday night, I found two small hodes in my groin area. I don’t know what to think. Worry fills my heart instantly. I feel the left & side to see if perhaps it is just a normal part of my body. But I don’t fell any lumps! I didn’t want to tell mom because she would just worry, that I deserved what I got. What did I do to get these 2 lumps in my pelvic area? Dad’s away in France, so he can’t take me to Sloan until tomorrow, I didn’t want to tell him at first either, but he kept or asking me why I wanted to go to checkup so early. So I told him. 4 breaks my heart to see him worry. But I’m scared too. I’m planning to start college August 25, but if it is cancerous I might have to delay a year. I guess that’s not that important but I just don’t want to go through chemo again. It was a lot of pain, but it was even harder so see my parent so worried & burdened. I don’t want to be a burden on my parents. I’ve been praying a lot about this, and God told me to not worry. It’s kinda hard not to worry, but I trust that He has his reasons & timing for everything even if I don’t understand it.
Dear God,
I’m scared right now, I have so many goals I want to accomplish. I made plans to go to school in August. You may have different purpose for me. So I will trust you & let you guide me. Please give me faith to trust that your way is the best way. And comfort my parents especially Mom so that she won’t be too worried, & that she will have faith in your way too. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.