JUn. 8, 2007 Glory's Diary -- Last chapter

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Glory's Diary, Glory's Story

Feeling: Still pretty depressed but still dealing with all the doctor calls & insurance headache.

Morning: Woke up at 7:30 a.m. I’m surprised that I even woke up so early considering that I went to bed last night crying my eyes out – ended up with a horrible headache.

Feeling ….. bored, like nothing I want to do has meaning. Don’t feel like watching TV or abc.com. Tried to go back to sleep play a little piano.

Afternoon: went to the appointment with Dr. to talk about protocol. The whole time that she was talking, I kept thinking about how I didn’t even want to be there and I don’t even want treatment.

Jesus healed the lame man by the healing pool. But what if 2 years later, the man can’t walk anymore.

People say the greater the pain, the greater the joy. But the corollary is true  as well. The greater the joy, you have when you are well (especially after suffering for so long) the greater the hope & as a result the pain when you hear that the leukemia back.

I really cannot believe or except it right now. I really thought it would be something small. How can I be so healthy but so sick at the same time?